Letters from the White Queen

Love. The word itself is so simple but is vague and can mean a multitude of things. The Greeks knew this and broke love down into 4 specific types. 1) Storge—empathy bond.  2)  Philia—friend bond.  3)  Eros—erotic bond.  4)  Agape—unconditional "God" love. In a previous entry, I went into great detail about each type of love as they were seen from a Christian perspective.  Today, I'm just writing an entry on Eros; well, my journey in looking for love. To be frank, I've always seemed to be seeking for another as though I am not complete as a person until I have found my soulmate. It has been ingrained in my every being since I was a child through society, movies, and social media. You are not and can not be enough until you have a husband and XYZ children.  What happens though when the idea of a perfect nuclear family is debunked and you're left with countless failed relationships? You're left with me sitting in a coffee s...

I am strong. I am beautiful. I am kind. And most importantly, I am worthy of love and affection. I wish I could tell you that these thoughts have been nurtured and running through my veins for all 32 years of my existence on this earth but that is very far from reality. Up until about a few months ago, I felt the absolute opposite.  I grew up thriving on my self-worth solely on the thoughts and feelings I received from men. Always feeling insecure in my body and my lack of ‘coolness’ is and has been my general motif. For those who don’t know, I snapped at one point last year and chopped off all my hair. Though this seems like a normal task for most girls, it was a huge step for me. It was at that moment I chose myself over the thoughts of many. That was the moment I chose to just live and be without restraints. Over the last year, my faith in God has been greatly challenged. Though I remain spiritual, I don't know if I would consider myself religious or at least having that ...