Letters from the White Queen

Lift the veil you use to cloak your eyes. I see you as you are. Don't be surprised. I see you. I see ALL of you. All your pitfalls. All your glory. All the things you want to hide. I see you with my clear eyes. Have no fear because I see you,  And the ALL the beauty you keep locked inside. Note: This poem can have many meanings, but it only has one. It talks about when you fall in love and you see the person clearly not just with rose colored glasses. I feel so many of us are afraid to show our true selves; especially with our significant other. But someone who truly loves you will see beyond your mask. They will love you purely and completely.  We are all a little bit broken and a little bit unlovable. But that does not make us undeserving of love. Love is the greatest gift that can be bestowed upon us and it given freely without condemnation or expectations.  For example: God loves us no knowing if we will love him back and bring glory to him in...

Je t'aime. Such a simple phase yet it holds soo much gravity. As we get older it gets harder to say and even harder to express. It isn't because we don't know love.  It's because we are afraid to take that risk;  The plunge that leaves us vulnerable to all the harsh realities of this world.  I don't use it often so if you feel it from me;  It is a huge expression.  Because I love you not knowing if my feelings will ever be returned. Note: I am elated when I think of him, but I know our time is done and that God will give me another. I have been soo desperately holding onto a ghost who never was. My Black Knight was not a knight at all. Though he may appear valiant. He was a charlatan who is unaware of the greatness that runs through his veins. But I am not called to judge. God gives each of us soo many gifts and blessing; making us his finest works of art. But it up to us to bring glory to him through our lives and our actions. For me, it is ...

These Citadel walls. How mighty there are; Never allowing light beyond their walls. Through each battle they stand valiantly and tall. These Citadel walls see how they fall.  Letting the light in for their treasures a re not so small. These Citadel walls.  They are not so tall. Note: This poem is completely about me. I have many walls and layers. On the surface I seem cold or arrogant to many, but that's not the case. I just take awhile to open up and once I do; I am your friend for life or until you break my trust.   I feel a lot of people can relate to this. We get hurt as we go through life and instead of being soften by the blow; we harden our hearts to others.  If there is just one thing I learned from this entire experience; it is that I MUST be soft no matter the situation. It might not be easy but to be able to walk away and act with grace is what God wishes for all of us. 

In another time, in some other place, you and I had another story. I know this because when I look into your eyes it is with great familiarity. Our souls have be bond to one another for centuries. You were my sun and I was your moon. Maybe we aren't meant to be together in this lifetime but I've kissed those lips a thousand times before; I'll kiss them a thousand times evermore. Note: Do you ever just meet someone and have an instant connection? May it be a kindred spirit or finding your other half. There's an indescribable feeling that overcomes you when you meet this person. 

Do I shine as bright as the rest? Or do I emanate a glow of my own? When you see me, do you see my apparent flaws?  Or do you take me in as a whole and love me despite all? What makes me so different from the rest? It is because I see YOU as a whole and love YOU despite all.

My prince. He does not ride valiantly on a white stead With dashing looks a nd a chin worthy of praise. He does not slay dragons by day and plunder his wealth by night. My prince.  He’s not dashing by other's standards. He is a child at heart. He journeys this world with God and a Bible at his side, So that in times of utmost darkness; HIS word will be the weapon of choice. My prince. He is out there. So in the mean time I look up in my moments of darkness And praise the Lord for all the good that he has done. Note: I remember on one of our dates; the Black Knight asked me a question: 'What quality do you look in a guy?' I don't know why I said it. But my answer was simple: 'I want a man who puts God first.' Someone who believes God's hand in his life to the extent that he had to listen to God to find me. Silly, huh? But that was my answer. Looks die out and all you're left with is the personality and qualities of a person, so it is be...

"On the day of the equinox, the knight had finally addressed the maiden. But it was with great distance. It was as though their  time together  had never happened. She felt like a fool. The maiden was puzzled by this revelation.  So she continued to pray for guidance and courage. HE said: BE STILL." Note: Eventually, we did start talking again. He saw me through the last 6 months while I was on my spiritual journey. He was truly my backbone in all things. There wasn't a week that passed by that we didn't at least talk a handful of times. I could not ask for a greater blessing than him through my trials and especially through the sudden death of my uncle. However, when the time came for my baptism; he wasn't there like he promised. And I knew what I had to do. I had to let go and finally let God do his work.  My belief is that if we are truly meant to be in each other's lives; God will find a way. If not, I hope he knows th...