Darkness




In the darkest corners of my mind, that is where I find you.

 My thoughts of you creep out when I think I am fine.

 Oh, how the concepts of self worth play in my mind.

 For it is I to blame for your sudden good bye.

 Note: 
I believe we can all relate to this idea of blame when relationships end. The process of getting over is difficult and lonely at times. But when we pray and look towards HIM for answers, we are never alone. HE will always be with us through our heartache and the happiest moments of our lives. 

 A prayer life is essential in being the beckon of life in the darkness. 

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