Pain. Learning to love myself.
Open Letter to my Blog: When I wrote my last entry those many months ago, I had hoped that I was entering moments of pure bliss. Unfortunately, that was not the case. 5/6 months went and gone in a flash and what I gained was utter confusion. I fell in love with a guy who was never emotionally available to me because he was/ is still in love with his ex. In fact, as I'm writing this, I'm pretty sure he is with her. It would be easy for me to play the victim in all of this but I am not innocent. There were flags everywhere and I chose to turn a blind eye on these moments and went with what felt good instead of facing the reality that I would always pale in comparison to this girl. And he did his part by not healing completely and involving another heart into the confusion. Despite who is at fault, I am the one left with a broken heart. I lost count how many times I've cried over the course of the 6 months. To the outside point of view, it seems like a simple solutio...