Letters from the White Queen

Last Saturday when I met up with Abouna to discuss my walk with God, he mentioned the three types of people who attend church on Sunday. * First is the one who comes out of obligation/ they are forced to. Most of the time these are children who are forced to digest religion. Often times these children will grow away from the church at some point and a selected few will return as adults when they get married and have children of their own. * Second is the one who goes to church just because this is what they are trained to do and it is something to do on Sunday. These are usually the adults who go to church services the last 30 min and can be found constantly on the phones. They do not feel God because they don't invite the Holy Spirit into their lives other than Sunday. * Third is the one who is vigilant and gives each day to God so long services on Sunday is not considered a hassle but a necessity. In summary, he was trying to tell me that just because you're in ch...

Geeze that's a mouthful! But this is the path I am going apparently. I got the okay from Abouna last night as he handed me four more books to read. Lol. I'm still in shock over all of this. I am truly at a lost for words. That is all for now...you would think words would spill out of my soul but, no, I am still digesting all of this.  Many Blessings. Linda

I thought by the end of this little venture with magic, I would come to some crazy conclusion other than IT JUST IS. God is amazing. End of story! Lol. Honestly, I never truly have an idea of where God will place my heart until I put my words on paper. As you can tell I am a VERY restless soul. I think that's it! My restlessness and inability to just be complacent in the knowledge that I have about God helps me to see magic. My search to better understand him is no longer an end goal but a journey on an unpaved road. I used to think that if I followed a certain path in my life, I would win a prize. More specifically, I would be happily married by now.  When I began my journey of looking into orthodox religion, I had no idea what and where I was going. I still have no clue, most of the time I am very scared because I am going through this alone. But as the weeks have passed I know now more than ever that this is where God is pressing my heart. We don't always unde...

About a month ago during liturgy, Fr Kyrillos briefly touched on the fact that dramatic God moving miracles no longer happen in our western society because the devil fights God through our disbelief as a society that something greater exist. How accurate is that? We don't see great miracles unfold before our eyes as they did during the time of the apostles.  Why is that? Do miracle no longer exist? Does God no longer love his children enough to perform such miracles?  Of course the answer to the last question is NO. God's love has never changed and has never left us. We as Christians just don't realize His hand at work in our lives. Often we accredit miracles to our own abilities or luck. As Fr. Kyrillos said during the same sermon; we as a society are too self reliant and do not see that God's will is actually at play. A prime example of Christ and his ability to perform miracles is the story of 2 fish and 5 loaves of bread. Many know this story from Jo...

So as I stated before, we are going to let me run with the idea of magic AKA God's love and miracles. Where better to start than with love? The Bible has many passages about love. Love is broken into four different types: Eros , Storge , Philia , and Agape . Eros : The intimate type of love aka the romantic love. The best example of this is found in the Old Testament, Song of Solomon or Song of Songs. I've read excerpt of this book here and there, it is beautifully written. I will admit that there are part where the words come alive and makes me blush. For those not familiar with this book; the passage that I like the most and is often used at weddings is Song of Solomon 2: 10-13. Which reads: "My lover spoke and said to me, 'Arise, my darling, my beautiful one, and some with me. See! The winter is past; the rains are over and gone. Flowers appear on the earth; the season of singing has come, the cooing of doves is heard in out land." ...

Hello Everyone. Hope you all are having a fabulous week. I am soo very thankful that it is almost over; just finished my finals and started my clinicals today. It was a 12 hour day with commute, but I'm sure I will get used to this exhausting schedule. Maybe. Anyways... I was thinking about this for a few weeks as I dove into religious Orthodox studies. I've been backing up my argument with the logistics of Orthodoxy and knowing the history of the Coptic faith but I have yet to show you, my readers, the magic of God. No, I'm not saying God is synonymous to pulling a rabbit out of a hat. I mean the miracles and love that He has bestowed upon us. That is what I mean by magic. God isn't a fairytale; he is a love story that moves each and every one of us on a daily basis. And HIS love creates the magic in all our lives. So, this is a little precursor to my next couple of posts. How does God move/ moved in my life? Side note: I am currently reading 'Becomin...

Hello Everyone, I've been absent on the blogging for the past week, but it wasn't due to the lack of thoughts running through my mind. Actually, my mind is more on fire than ever. It had to do with not knowing where or how to proceed with each train of thought. Because I am truly at a crossroads. Do I continue my journey through the Coptic Church or run back to my Evangelist background with the knowledge I've gained within the last few months? When I began my journey in the Coptic Church I knew there would be eyes on me and judgements passed and somehow I got it into my head that they would continue to look at me like an outsider. But as someone told me recently, 'people grow.' We all grow to familiarize ourselves with our surroundings and when that moments happens the walls fall down and God enters this realm. At this point, I have been attending St. Paul for a month and have slowly become more comfortable in my surroundings. Up until today, I've com...