The Journey Continues...


Hello Everyone,

I've been absent on the blogging for the past week, but it wasn't due to the lack of thoughts running through my mind. Actually, my mind is more on fire than ever. It had to do with not knowing where or how to proceed with each train of thought. Because I am truly at a crossroads. Do I continue my journey through the Coptic Church or run back to my Evangelist background with the knowledge I've gained within the last few months?

When I began my journey in the Coptic Church I knew there would be eyes on me and judgements passed and somehow I got it into my head that they would continue to look at me like an outsider. But as someone told me recently, 'people grow.' We all grow to familiarize ourselves with our surroundings and when that moments happens the walls fall down and God enters this realm.

At this point, I have been attending St. Paul for a month and have slowly become more comfortable in my surroundings. Up until today, I've come almost full armored to church because I still felt like an outcast. But as I was siting in vespers today, I finally realized it was all in my head. To be honest, I was actually tearing up because I felt really moved by the Holy Spirit.

I thought God would give me a lightening bolt sign at this point so it would dawn upon me or a fleece of wool with dew on it. If you don't get either one of the references; we are no longer friends. Sorry, its just the truth. Jk.

So in short, I am going to continue my journey through the Coptic Church and if all works out; I will convert in the future. Can't say near future because I start clinicals this week and have a ton of boards to pass. But, yes, I've found my spiritual home. This is probably a good time to have a one on one with the priest about this but you know me. I like to run away from things when God calls me to them. IE: Texas Lol.

Here we go... Asian Coptic Orthodox...how does that work???

Many Blessings.

Linda

P.S. I am not abandoning my duties at the church I am attending Women's Bible Study; this journey continues to fuel me so I can be better at ministering God's love.

Picture: "Two roads diverge in a yellow wood, and sorry I could not travel both...I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference" - Robert Frost

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